Toska- Russian ("No single word in English renders all the shades of toska. At its deepest and most painful, it is a sensation of great spiritual anguish, often without any specific cause. At less morbid levels it is a dull ache of the soul, a longing with nothing to long for, a sick pining, a vague restlessness, mental throes, yearning. In particular cases it may be the desire for somebody of something specific, nostalgia, love-sickness. At the lowest level it grades into ennui, boredom.)

Peeled off my lips 

Burn

Stood on my baby's chest

Jump

Rolled on the temple grounds 

Learn

Pulled off my lashes

Cum

Journeyed to the tip of my nose 

Observe 

Carelessly pulled down my pants 

Preserve 

Tolerated your abuse

Measure 

Waited for that seething memory 

Leisure

Stuck to mankind 

Stupid 

No more adrenaline 

Cut my thigh 

Lucid 

I'm only ten years old.

Suited,looted.